sparkly glitter times

I am really glad that i took sculpture this semester. I really enjoyed the realness of our entire class and seeing how a project can be interpreted in so many different ways. I hope a lot of the people from our class continue to take sculpture. I liked our class because it was real, sometimes it would be just like hanging out with each other and sharing ideas and thinking about the world and what it says to us, and thats what i like to do. I think the best way to teach something is through freedom, enlightening people and then having their mind do the rest, and i really think that the success of our class was based on what happened to us outside of class, after class, and how much we were each effected by the things we talked about This semester was insane for me, I feel like my head and person just expanded in so many ways and i think its funny how you can never really understand or see things clearly until they are over. I think the entire concept of college is kind of weird. I never thought i would be here and sometimes i wonder if i should be or if i should be off joining the circus. Sometimes i wonder, whats going to happen to us all? But why am i worrying about that stuff. We all have something in our lives that we love to do, and momments where we are just so alive and real and happy and we should just really be thankful for everything no matter how bad we may feel sometimes. Thats why i feel life is more about doing what you love then doing other stupid mindless bullshit. I guess sometimes i am just overwhelmed by the very idea of existing, how amazingly good and evil everything can be. I guess what im trying to say is everyone is as equally good as they are bad. Any good or evil that you encounter in the world is based on whats inside of you, not the thing that is inflicting it upon you. It doesnt matter what is going to happen, the good or bad things you do, it matters how much you love the little things that life can give you, and if you see them or choose to ignore them. If you replay them in your mind, and let them spill in to every other thing you do. Our existence is temporary. We will not be young forever. And right now is beautiful, its magically awesome and it makes me want to just explode because i love it so much, and i hope everyone can just take some time and realize that, because some things are just so rare, keep them always in your mind, and then you will really understand why we are here in the first place.
to conclude that.... all you kids in sculpture, in life are great, it doesnt matter what you make how you make it it matters the feelings that you felt and how you connected with what you made, what it did inside of you and if you love it like you love those rare magical times that make being here worthwhile.

cameras

The last critique we had i thought everyone made some seriously cool stuff, and even if everyone wasnt completely satisfied with what they did, the most important part of everyones sculpture was the whole idea behind the project and what it made us think about. This project was about media space. Brining in to reality something that is hyperreal in virtual reality. I thought the most interesting project was the video camera project. The fact that the actual project is the response to the project is brilliant and the fact that at one time, the project was actual and then it is past is really cool. once you replay it, it is a captured memory that is different each time you view it. The cool concept behinid it is the project is always changing, because the project is the response. Everytime it is viewed, other responses occur and the original response that makes the project is skewed and transformed much like the whole idea of actuality, and you can NEVER relive something in the actual way it occured, all you have is a memory that stays in your mind. And where is that memory, those images and feelings, where are they kept? What is a tv? when you watch a tv, it is like you are watching a mind, but a universal mind, tv hypnotizes you in the way that it is mimicking every single thing your brain does, since we live life as spectators of other people, since we can never understand how we are to others. We can only get a sense of who we are through THE RESPONSE of other people since we can never truly see ourselves. What is recorded on that camera is what life is. What makes things what they are and what makes things exist, is the response to them.Something cannot exist if there is nothing to document the existence. The coolest part about that project is it is the most simple idea that the response makes the project exist. That project makes me think about so many things...how can you take NOTHING and make it exist? Make the nothing create a response. But if there is nothing there, then, how can someone or something respond to it. I think that is one of those crazy ideas when you start to think, nothing is something. Because there is no nothing in the entire world, but then again, existence is only something because there are other things to respond to whatever exists. I guess what the project makes me think about tv, the internet, and all that shit, is it really is nothing. There is only something there because we can see and respond to it when in reality it is a completly falsely generated thing. If we make sculptures on the computer, what makes them any different than if we make them in real life? I guess im more about response through actual interaction, but who is to say that actual interaction is more real than interaction on a computer. When i think about it...maybe sculptures on the computer are more real and more closely tied to ourselves because maybe things are the most real when we see them in our head because then they are ours...and when we see it in our head that is the first original time, free from response from others. How we see things in our mind, is how they appear on a computer or a tv, in a flat virtual world. anytime we make art, we are making it from things that are happening in our head, a collaboration of things we saw inside of there, seperate from the actual world, but contained in thought. When you think about it, the only things that REALLY exist, are the things that exist inside YOUR OWN INDIVIDUAL HEAD because no one will ever be able to see the images and thoughts and memories contained inside your head, they can only respond to them once you create them as secondary objects, generalizations of what you originally saw in your mind, then transformed in reality. The video camera project lets us watch our reponse, and then respond to that response. Instead of continuing to talk and go crazy i am just going to say that surrealism and philosophy are so important in understanding the world and i just want to take all of that stuff in so i can realize more things about myself and view the world the way it really is, not the way we falsely make it to be